Laurel. [ she twists her hand under laurel's, curling her fingers weakly around her friend's hand. ] All that guilt is going to crush you if you let it.

[ she lets out a soft laugh, looking down at the hospital blanket, already becoming too familiar. ]

When I, when I first woke up, after I stopped trying to kill Ollie, once I was me again. All I could think about was... what if we used the pit on Tommy? [ she scratches her nose to hide the way it wiggles, telltale sign of oncoming tears. ] I mean, he was better than all of us. If anyone deserved a second chance, it was him. [ and it was entirely selfish, thea just wanted her brother back, wanted a chance to know him as her brother, wanted a chance to finally have a family when she keeps losing everyone. ] But Dad would never let me and part of me... Part of me wants to believe that he's with his mom and you know how much he missed her. But Sara's entire life is still here, a life she deserves to live. We'll figure this out somehow. I promise.